What, why and how? Part fucking two!

Its happened again!
Within less then maybe 2 hours!
He found her.
She lied to him.
He lied to her.
So they were on some cliff apprently lying to each others faces!
To me that sounds like a death wish!
I don't understand!
All I'm trying to do is say that I don't want to take sides between them because they're both my friends.
He comes over after all that and expects me to fix it.
How The FUCK am i supposed to fix something that has nothing to do with me!
I have no part in this, how is it my problem?!

So we had a huge talk about how \I'm not taking sides I'm just trying to explain that they need to leave each other alone and try not being friends for a while and maybe just maybe all the problems will go away with the fact that they've stopped trying to get along when clearly its just not going to happen.
Then he comes out with "If you're not on my side you're on her side" and horse-shit like that.
Then, i notice the cuts on his fucking wrist! AGAIN!
So we're having a time out because I am way too pissed off to keep talk about this right now.

I'll write again when when i know what is going on.

What, why and how?

First of all you probably will think that this photo has nothing to do with anything, but it does, it symbolises passing. Passing can also mean getting over something. In this text it will mean getting over someone, like your ex.

What is it about boys that makes them so fucking hard to undderstand?!
Why do they have to get all upset over their ex girlfriends just because they don't tell them that they're having sex with/seeing someone else now?
It not your business!
You broke up with her/she broke up with you.
I don't see why you think she has to tell you all about her fucking life if she chooses not to!
And anyway it's her 20th birthday I'm sure she should be allowed to do whatever she fucking wants without your permission.

What do you think I'm going to do about you being upset?
It's not my fault she still loves you, it's not my fault she doesn't want to spend time with you, and again it's not my fault that she wanted me not you.
And even though she did want me and not you, that was then, she wanted you again after that.

How on earth is kissing me all the time going to fix things in your life, fix things with her?
I'm just going to make the whole thing so much more complicated!

If anyone understands any of this and agrees with this boy then please explain it to me because its seriously defacing my whole life.

So Sick.

It was my friends 18th last night!
YAY!
It was excruciatingly painful until izzy turned up.
I adore that girl!
Absolutly gorgeous!
Anyway it was good then, but the thing is, the boy i used to like was there...
And i know he used to like me...
But what the fuck was with him!
He was ignoring me and hooking up with and all but having sex with, until I left, some ugly bitch who is actually his friends ex!
And to make it even weirder she broke up with my friend the night me and him...
Did what him and her were doing last night.
I mean I wouldn't care as much if he wasnt ignoring me.
Or making sure I was around for everything!
Seriously, just before I left he came into the lounge room where i had been for a little over half an hour, with her shadowing behind of course, laid down onto the lounge and she litterally jumped on top of him.
What the fuck does that even fucking mean!
Like, what does he want me to do, push her off and jump onto him instead?!
I didn't think he wanted me still thats why I forced myself to get over him.
I seriously thinking about going lesbian soon.
Well, thats only if my current boyfriend breaks up with me...
Again, but for real this time.
Not like all the other times, they don't really count.

Well, thats it for now.
Lovelovelove.

So, Here It Is...

My first ever blog!
So to get started, yes, I'm going to bitch about things and people,
that's what a blog is obviously, somewhere you post your opinions.
And beleive me, I have a lot of them.
Anyway, that is not all I will be posting here.
Hopefully if i can figure all this out soon, I shall post pictures and polls and such.
Yay for raah.

For my first blog I just want to write about myself and maybe get some replys.
I want to know about you, the reader, but first you have to read about me.
Deal?
If not, just click the little red [x] in the right corner or type a new page into the task bar.

Name; Raah.
Age; 17, almost 18! Yay.
D.O.B; 27/o5/1992
Occupation; Currently living at home bludgeing, but i hope to get a new job soon.

Current Favourites.
Colour; Red... And purple and black and blue...
Bands; The Birthday Massacre [have been the favourite for quite sometime.], Parkway Drive [also been a favourite a long time] and I also really love Saosin.
Numbers; 7, 3 and 13.
Influence; Zoe Kravitz, Audrey Kitching and Jac Vanek.


Well thats it for now.
Post replies about yourself here or add me and then comment me on myspce at:
www.myspace.com/raah.kitching

I'm out, much love.