Screw This Whole Damn City!

Its from my birthday party!
My 18th.
I thank the girls and couple of guys that did come.
My Andrew.
Jade.
Khia [Pictured]
Hayley [Pictured].
Mickey and James.
Sam and Tessa [Tessa Pictured].
Nick and Chris.
Plus family friends.
Altogether that's 20 people out of the 50 friends that I invited.
Doesn't turning 18 usually mean all your friends will want to party with you,
get you drunk, do crazy things, take many many photos and wake up the next morning no knowing who the person is that is in the kitchen eating all your food..?
So much for love...

Is There Anyone There..?

What is wrong with me?
Seriously..?
Is there a reason people don't talk to me anymore?
Or do they just think it fun, it's just something to do,
ignore raah...
Sometime I like to think I have friends, that my boyfriend loves me as much as I love him...
But in reality, we all have no one and nothing to keep us going.
If you really get deep down into what keeps some people going, it's all just selfishness.
Ugly selfishness run by consumerism and greed.
I have no money or gifts or know any kind of services to offer anyone in return to create my own world of greed or consumerism, maybe thats why I'm so fucked up..
Because my life is not run by greed, it's run by people who I assumed wanted to be in my life, but now I know different.
I wish that I could change, I wish I could act selfish and not care about other peoples feelings, but I'm not like that, I care about the people I love, I care about my friends, I care about my boyfriend.
I wish I could stop caring!
Then maybe people would want to try be my friend, they'd be fight over who gets to be my friend or not...
But, it just doesn't work like that...

Apprently I Should Be In Jail.

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
total so far: 9.

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt:.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
total so far: 17.

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
7. received a ticket.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
total so far: 24.

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
total so far: 31

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
total so far: 39.

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
total so far: 47.

1. consider/​​​​​​​considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/​​​​​​​tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
total so far: 54.

1. pissed on a car.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf.
4. got into a fight.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
total so far: 61.

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
total: 69.

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20.. write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30.. write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40.. write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50.. write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60.. write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70.. write[i should be dead]

Stole It.

Name: Raah
Birth Date: 27 May 1992.
Current Location: New South Wales, Australia.
Hair Color:Dark Brown Dyed Blue black.

Righty/Lefty: Righty.

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
Your fear: Heights, the ocean and the dark.
Your dream of the perfect date: I really have no idea, just watching a funny movie and falling asleep cuddleing.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: But i don't want to.
Your best physical feature: Eyes.
Your bed time: Whenever I feel like it.
Your most missed memory: hm, first time we kissed.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: Swell.
I HATE: love.
I HIDE: under the bed.
I NEED: to get a proper life.
I LOVE: my friends and Him.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Neither.
McDonald’s or Burger King: Burger King.
Single or Group Dates: Either.
Adidas or Nike: None.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee. But cappuccino is coffee..

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Yes.
Cuss: Yes.
Take showers: Yes.
Have a crush: Its more then a crush.
Like school: Miss it.
Believe in yourself: Hm.
Believe what goes around comes around: Yes.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Yes.
Think you’re a health freak: I wish.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: No.
Eaten sushi: Yes.
Been hurt: Yes.
Dyed your hair: No.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: yes.
Kissed the same sex: Yes.
Gotten beaten up: No.
Changed who you were to fit in: No.

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: At least 25, He says 22-24.
Number of kids you’re planning on having: No kids!

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Green or brown.
hair color: Girl, any Boy any but red/orange.
short or long hair: both.
Fat or fit: Fit.
Looks or personality: Both.
Fun or serious: Fun but can be serious.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: This.
1 HOUR AGO: Sleeping.
1 WEEK AGO: God I don't remember.
1 YEAR AGO: I was either on the train to tafe, or at tafe.

What Is This World Coming To!

You know what I've just relised..?
I really dispise what men have done to women.
It makes every girl lie about her sexuality just for the attention of boys.
Why do girls think that they have to impress boys, they're the ones who should be trying to impress us.
Either you impress us or, suffer from blue balls and no sex.
I hate that girls think they they have to 'hook up' with other girls to get a boy to notice her.
Its discusting!
I also hate what the government has done in america, not allowing same sex marrages.
Its disciminating, its degrading and it is not fair to more then half the population.
It shows people that it is ok to treat gays/lesbians in a horrible way, to not allow them work, to disaknowledge them in a que if they look like a 'faggot' or a 'dyke'.
Every living person in this world deserves a life equal to any other person, a just life course just as much their own neighbour.

Where's You're Bathroom?

As you can tell I've be come obsessed with Youtube Vids from futurama,
mostly including Bender.

Just Feel Like Sharing.

100 Things.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? No shoes on a skateboard =/
2. WHAT ARE ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Posters and bits and pieces of magazines and things.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? Not that I'm aware of.
4. WHAT KINDS OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? many genres.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? yesum.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? Him.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? Him.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)? My rings, my cat/s, camera, phone, laptop and Him.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5”2 or 3.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? sometimes.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? yes.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? Mother.
13. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Heights, the ocean and the dark.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? His.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING? Zah?
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? both.
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? supreme.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Oreos.
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME? Its a toss between red or purple.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? No thank you.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU’VE EVER RECEIVED? An Eternity ring from Him.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? hm.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? No.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Bonds.
25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITIES? megan fox and zoe saldana.
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? peri, sno, elvis, ziggi.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT? [kitty], [rat], [dog], [bird].
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? I can't change the way I feel, its not optional.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 72.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Either.
32. FAVORITE QUOTE? “Fear Has A Large Shadow, But He Himself Is Small.”
33. FAVORITE PLACE? In my bed with Him, or just with Him in general.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF AUSTRALIA? Not yet but soon.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? Cute/pretty girls, or when He just looks into my eyes and holds me.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? Hm..
37. FIRST JOB? Seven Eagles Spur.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? A few.
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE? I like to think so, yes.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? Talking to Him.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? No.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? Nice eyes.
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? Yes.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? Vera Wang Princess or Goth Boots.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES? No kids, just kittys, two kittys, one is going to be named Elysian.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My great great aunt or grandmother or someone.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eh, ugly or really up themselves.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL? Friends.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? I don't know, different ones all the time.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Eh.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Eh.
52. ANY BAD HABITS? Oh lord. Yes.
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON? yes.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Try to be.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS? Indeed I do.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER? Yes but personality is means more.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Music.
58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS? Probably lose the pounds, but it'd be annoying coz i'd obviously be a really sick person.
59. WHAT’S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE? To work in fashion photography.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? I don't know, I just remember pulling heads off barbies and cutting their hair and playing in mud.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? Which phone..?
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID? Yes.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Pfft Never!..
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? Either..
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Modesty.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? raah and rara.
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER? Being able to run/sink through anything, like that girl on X-men.
68. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOWS? Sailor Moon, The L Word, NCIS.
69.WHAT’S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES? Eh.
70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Cake Batter or Hokey Pokey.
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? Yes.
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM? Laptop.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT? Sleep.
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER? Melbourne.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? Eh If they choose to.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? I'm on the phone to Him.
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK? Hot chocolate.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? I'm on the phone to Him.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eyes usually.
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME? Sleep, text, computer or watch movies.
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR? autumn and winter.
83. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY? I don't know.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND? Yes.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Black.
86. EYE COLOR? Hazel.
87. CLOTHES SIZE? 6-8.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE? Red Rooster or KFC.
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT? I don't know.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? yes.
91. WATCH TV TODAY? Yes.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Don't know.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS? Not anymore.
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT? What.
95. KISSES OR HUGS? Depends.
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Depends.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? God I do not know.
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE? No.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Envy, from The Luxe seris.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE: I'm in love with Him and He loves me back.
I can't imagine my life with out him. I literally can't.

You Fall Apart And Then You Stop.

What is it about you that makes me so happy, and then later I feel so amazingly shit about life without you.
Why is it that I can be content with not being with you, but as soon as I see you're online, or as soon as I get your txt messages, I want to be with you always?
I just wish that love could be like how it is in the movies, the beautiful girl falls in love with someone not good for her and then she is saved by the gorgeous, strong, amazing and un-expected new comer...
I wish that I could be that new comer.
God, I have no idea what I want with my life.
Why does there have to be so little options when you need more, and so many when you need few..?
I do not know what to do with myself.
I love my boy, I can't think about life without him, without wanting to burst out into tears.
But then, when I'm with you, when I talk to you, I wish it could work out so I could be with you.
And then I get even more upset because I know I have/will hurt you again...
And...
Eh, I'm so over promises and I'm really sick and tired of love!

I want Neytiri, she's sexy and she is so aware of what is happening in her life.
Maybe she can help me.
A sexy "alian" girlfriend..?

So Thankful

Just wanted to put this here, not for any reason in perticular, just that this is one of the songs i want at my funeral.
And no I don't plan on dying anytime soon but if I do thats that.
The other is Life After Death - Sixx Am
I don't care if they're 'too heavy' for funeral songs.
Thats what I want.
^.^

"Cool night, hot days
See hear touch feel & taste
To give to take
To mend that which I break
These things I am so thankful that I have

Open your eyes
Open up your eyes
Open your eyes
Open up your eyes

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

That I wake wake up
Every single day
The people that I know
The people that helped me grow
These arms & these legs
That you and me aren’t dead

Im thankful for all these things
Im thankful for all these things

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

Cause I feel the same things you feel
Cause I feel the same things you feel

Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life"