Rocko.

I know how this feels.

Nouvelle Cuisine

"A cooking full of complicity, sweetness and sensualism..."

Zoli! (L)

Zoli! (L)

Ha! You're such a joke!

I'm sorry...

Morsmordre

I see her...

'She's so fake, I bet if you looked behind her neck it says "made in china". '

--http://ladyindie.tumblr.com/

My Obsession.

HA! I (L) HP!!

Damn Right!

If Not For This

True.

For The Miss I Miss...

In Memory.

Screw This Whole Damn City!

Its from my birthday party!
My 18th.
I thank the girls and couple of guys that did come.
My Andrew.
Jade.
Khia [Pictured]
Hayley [Pictured].
Mickey and James.
Sam and Tessa [Tessa Pictured].
Nick and Chris.
Plus family friends.
Altogether that's 20 people out of the 50 friends that I invited.
Doesn't turning 18 usually mean all your friends will want to party with you,
get you drunk, do crazy things, take many many photos and wake up the next morning no knowing who the person is that is in the kitchen eating all your food..?
So much for love...

Is There Anyone There..?

What is wrong with me?
Seriously..?
Is there a reason people don't talk to me anymore?
Or do they just think it fun, it's just something to do,
ignore raah...
Sometime I like to think I have friends, that my boyfriend loves me as much as I love him...
But in reality, we all have no one and nothing to keep us going.
If you really get deep down into what keeps some people going, it's all just selfishness.
Ugly selfishness run by consumerism and greed.
I have no money or gifts or know any kind of services to offer anyone in return to create my own world of greed or consumerism, maybe thats why I'm so fucked up..
Because my life is not run by greed, it's run by people who I assumed wanted to be in my life, but now I know different.
I wish that I could change, I wish I could act selfish and not care about other peoples feelings, but I'm not like that, I care about the people I love, I care about my friends, I care about my boyfriend.
I wish I could stop caring!
Then maybe people would want to try be my friend, they'd be fight over who gets to be my friend or not...
But, it just doesn't work like that...

Apprently I Should Be In Jail.

1. smoked.
2. consumed alcohol.
3. slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
4. slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
5. kissed someone of the same sex.
6. had sex.
7. had someone in your room other than family.
8. watched porn.
9. bought porn.
10. tried drugs.
total so far: 9.

1. taken painkillers.
2. taken someone else's prescription medicine.
3. lied to your parents.
4. lied to a friend.
5. snuck out of the house.
6. done something illegal.
7. felt hurt:.
8. hurt someone.
9. wished someone to die.
10. seen someone die.
total so far: 17.

1. missed curfew.
2. stayed out all night.
3. eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself.
4. been to a therapist.
7. received a ticket.
5. been to rehab.
6. dyed your hair.
8. been in an accident.
9. been to a club.
10. been to a bar.
total so far: 24.

1. been to a wild party.
2. been to a Mardi Gras parade.
3. drank more than three alcoholic beverages in a night.
4. had a spring break in Florida.
5. sniffed anything.
6. wore black nail polish.
7. wore arm bands.
8. wore t-shirts with band names.
9. listened to rap.
10. owned a 50 Cent CD.
total so far: 31

1. dressed gothic.
2. dressed girly.
3. dressed punk.
5. stole something.
6. been too drunk to remember anything.
7. blacked out.
8. fainted.
9. had a crush on a neighbor.
total so far: 39.

1. had a crush on a friend.
2. been to a concert.
3. dry-humped someone.
4. been called a slut.
5. called someone a slut.
6. installed speakers in your car.
7. broken a mirror.
8. showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
9. brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush.
total so far: 47.

1. consider/​​​​​​​considered Ludacris your favorite rapper.
2. seen an R-rated movie in theater.
3. cruised the mall.
4. skipped school.
5. had surgery.
6. had an injury.
7. gone to court.
8. walked out of a restaurant without paying/​​​​​​​tipping.
9. caught something on fire.
10. lied about your age.
total so far: 54.

1. pissed on a car.
2. broke the law in the police's presence.
3. made out with someone who had a gf/bf.
4. got into a fight.
5. talked to a stranger.
6. hugged a stranger.
7. kissed a stranger.
8. rode in the car with a stranger.
9. been harassed.
10.been verbally harassed.
total so far: 61.

1. met face-to-face with someone you met online.
2. stayed online for 5 hours straight.
3. talked on the phone for more than 4 hours straight.
4. watched TV for 5 hours straight.
5. been to a fair.
6. been called a bad influence.
7. drink and drive.
8. prank-called someone.
9. laid on a couch with someone of the opposite sex.
10. cheated on a test.
total: 69.

If You Have Less Than 10.. write [im a Goody Goody]
If You Have More Than 10.. write [im still a goody goody]
If You Have more Than 20.. write [im average]
If You Have More Than 30.. write [im a bad kid]
If You have more than 40.. write [im a very bad influence]
If You Have more than 50.. write [im a horrible person]
If You Have more than 60.. write [i should be in jail]
If You Have more than 70.. write[i should be dead]

Stole It.

Name: Raah
Birth Date: 27 May 1992.
Current Location: New South Wales, Australia.
Hair Color:Dark Brown Dyed Blue black.

Righty/Lefty: Righty.

LAYER 2: ON THE INSIDE
Your fear: Heights, the ocean and the dark.
Your dream of the perfect date: I really have no idea, just watching a funny movie and falling asleep cuddleing.

LAYER 3: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW.
Your thoughts first waking up: But i don't want to.
Your best physical feature: Eyes.
Your bed time: Whenever I feel like it.
Your most missed memory: hm, first time we kissed.

LAYER 11: FINISH THE SENTENCE.
I FEEL: Swell.
I HATE: love.
I HIDE: under the bed.
I NEED: to get a proper life.
I LOVE: my friends and Him.

LAYER 4: YOUR PICK.
Pepsi or Coke: Neither.
McDonald’s or Burger King: Burger King.
Single or Group Dates: Either.
Adidas or Nike: None.
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla.
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee. But cappuccino is coffee..

LAYER 5: DO YOU.
Smoke: Yes.
Cuss: Yes.
Take showers: Yes.
Have a crush: Its more then a crush.
Like school: Miss it.
Believe in yourself: Hm.
Believe what goes around comes around: Yes.
Believe everything happens for a reason: Yes.
Think you’re a health freak: I wish.

LAYER 6: IN THE PAST MONTH.
Gone to the mall: Yes.
Been on stage: No.
Eaten sushi: Yes.
Been hurt: Yes.
Dyed your hair: No.

LAYER 7: HAVE YOU EVER.
Played a stripping game: yes.
Kissed the same sex: Yes.
Gotten beaten up: No.
Changed who you were to fit in: No.

LAYER 8: GETTING OLD.
Age you’re hoping to be married by: At least 25, He says 22-24.
Number of kids you’re planning on having: No kids!

LAYER 9: IN A GIRL/GUY.
Best eye color: Green or brown.
hair color: Girl, any Boy any but red/orange.
short or long hair: both.
Fat or fit: Fit.
Looks or personality: Both.
Fun or serious: Fun but can be serious.

LAYER 10: WHAT WERE YOU DOING.
1 MINUTE AGO: This.
1 HOUR AGO: Sleeping.
1 WEEK AGO: God I don't remember.
1 YEAR AGO: I was either on the train to tafe, or at tafe.

What Is This World Coming To!

You know what I've just relised..?
I really dispise what men have done to women.
It makes every girl lie about her sexuality just for the attention of boys.
Why do girls think that they have to impress boys, they're the ones who should be trying to impress us.
Either you impress us or, suffer from blue balls and no sex.
I hate that girls think they they have to 'hook up' with other girls to get a boy to notice her.
Its discusting!
I also hate what the government has done in america, not allowing same sex marrages.
Its disciminating, its degrading and it is not fair to more then half the population.
It shows people that it is ok to treat gays/lesbians in a horrible way, to not allow them work, to disaknowledge them in a que if they look like a 'faggot' or a 'dyke'.
Every living person in this world deserves a life equal to any other person, a just life course just as much their own neighbour.

Where's You're Bathroom?

As you can tell I've be come obsessed with Youtube Vids from futurama,
mostly including Bender.

Just Feel Like Sharing.

100 Things.

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT? No shoes on a skateboard =/
2. WHAT ARE ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM? Posters and bits and pieces of magazines and things.
3. DO YOU SNORE, GRIND YOUR TEETH, OR TALK IN YOUR SLEEP? Not that I'm aware of.
4. WHAT KINDS OF MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO? many genres.
5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? yesum.
6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? Him.
7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? Him.
8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)? My rings, my cat/s, camera, phone, laptop and Him.
9. HOW TALL ARE YOU? 5”2 or 3.
10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? sometimes.
11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK? yes.
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? Mother.
13. WHAT’S YOUR WORST FEAR? Heights, the ocean and the dark.
14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? His.
15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING? Zah?
16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK? both.
17. FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING? supreme.
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Oreos.
19. FAVORITE COLOR OF ALL TIME? Its a toss between red or purple.
20. HAVE YOU EVER EATEN A GOLDFISH? No thank you.
21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST MEANINGFUL GIFT YOU’VE EVER RECEIVED? An Eternity ring from Him.
22. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH? hm.
23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? No.
24. FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND? Bonds.
25. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE FEMALE/MALE CELEBRITIES? megan fox and zoe saldana.
26. DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW? peri, sno, elvis, ziggi.
27. WHAT KIND IS IT? [kitty], [rat], [dog], [bird].
28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING? I can't change the way I feel, its not optional.
30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED: 72.
31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Either.
32. FAVORITE QUOTE? “Fear Has A Large Shadow, But He Himself Is Small.”
33. FAVORITE PLACE? In my bed with Him, or just with Him in general.
34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF AUSTRALIA? Not yet but soon.
35. YOUR WEAKNESSES? Cute/pretty girls, or when He just looks into my eyes and holds me.
36. MET ANYONE FAMOUS? Hm..
37. FIRST JOB? Seven Eagles Spur.
38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? A few.
39. DO YOU THINK EVERYONE OUT THERE HAS A SOULMATE? I like to think so, yes.
40. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT? Talking to Him.
41. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY? No.
42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? Nice eyes.
43. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? Yes.
44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? Vera Wang Princess or Goth Boots.
45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT AND THEIR NAMES? No kids, just kittys, two kittys, one is going to be named Elysian.
46. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? My great great aunt or grandmother or someone.
47. WHAT IS THE BIGGEST TURN OFF OF THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eh, ugly or really up themselves.
48. WHAT IS ONE THING YOU LIKE(D) ABOUT HIGH SCHOOL? Friends.
49. WHAT KIND OF SHAMPOO DO YOU USE? I don't know, different ones all the time.
50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Eh.
51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? Eh.
52. ANY BAD HABITS? Oh lord. Yes.
53. ARE YOU A JEALOUS PERSON? yes.
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Try to be.
55. DO YOU AGREE WITH FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS? Indeed I do.
56. DO LOOKS MATTER? Yes but personality is means more.
57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Music.
58. WOULD YOU RATHER GAIN 58 POUNDS OR LOSE 58 POUNDS? Probably lose the pounds, but it'd be annoying coz i'd obviously be a really sick person.
59. WHAT’S YOUR MAIN GOAL IN LIFE? To work in fashion photography.
60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD? I don't know, I just remember pulling heads off barbies and cutting their hair and playing in mud.
61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? Which phone..?
62.WERE YOU A FAN OF BARNEY AS A LITTLE KID? Yes.
63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? Pfft Never!..
64. MASHED POTATOES OR MACARONI AND CHEESE? Either..
65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL? Modesty.
66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? raah and rara.
67. FAVORITE SUPER POWER? Being able to run/sink through anything, like that girl on X-men.
68. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOWS? Sailor Moon, The L Word, NCIS.
69.WHAT’S THE BEST WAY TO DEAL WITH YOUR ENEMIES? Eh.
70. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? Cake Batter or Hokey Pokey.
71. DO YOU HAVE ALL YOUR FINGERS AND TOES? Yes.
72. DO YOU HAVE A COMPUTER IN YOUR ROOM? Laptop.
73. PLANS FOR TONIGHT? Sleep.
74. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE WHEN YOU ARE OLDER? Melbourne.
75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS? Eh If they choose to.
76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO? I'm on the phone to Him.
77. LAST THING YOU DRANK? Hot chocolate.
78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? I'm on the phone to Him.
79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? Eyes usually.
80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO IN YOUR SPARE TIME? Sleep, text, computer or watch movies.
82. FAVORITE SEASON OF THE YEAR? autumn and winter.
83. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE TYPE OF CANDY? I don't know.
84. HAVE YOU EVER REALLY AND TRULY HAD A BEST FRIEND? Yes.
85. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? Black.
86. EYE COLOR? Hazel.
87. CLOTHES SIZE? 6-8.
88. FAVORITE FAST FOOD PLACE? Red Rooster or KFC.
89. FAVORITE RESTAURANT? I don't know.
90. DO YOU LIKE SUSHI? yes.
91. WATCH TV TODAY? Yes.
92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? Don't know.
93. PLAY ANY MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS? Not anymore.
94. REPUBLICAN OR DEMOCRAT? What.
95. KISSES OR HUGS? Depends.
96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Depends.
97. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? God I do not know.
98. WOULD YOU EVER BE A HOUSEWIFE? No.
99. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? Envy, from The Luxe seris.
100. DESCRIBE YOUR LOVE LIFE: I'm in love with Him and He loves me back.
I can't imagine my life with out him. I literally can't.

You Fall Apart And Then You Stop.

What is it about you that makes me so happy, and then later I feel so amazingly shit about life without you.
Why is it that I can be content with not being with you, but as soon as I see you're online, or as soon as I get your txt messages, I want to be with you always?
I just wish that love could be like how it is in the movies, the beautiful girl falls in love with someone not good for her and then she is saved by the gorgeous, strong, amazing and un-expected new comer...
I wish that I could be that new comer.
God, I have no idea what I want with my life.
Why does there have to be so little options when you need more, and so many when you need few..?
I do not know what to do with myself.
I love my boy, I can't think about life without him, without wanting to burst out into tears.
But then, when I'm with you, when I talk to you, I wish it could work out so I could be with you.
And then I get even more upset because I know I have/will hurt you again...
And...
Eh, I'm so over promises and I'm really sick and tired of love!

I want Neytiri, she's sexy and she is so aware of what is happening in her life.
Maybe she can help me.
A sexy "alian" girlfriend..?

So Thankful

Just wanted to put this here, not for any reason in perticular, just that this is one of the songs i want at my funeral.
And no I don't plan on dying anytime soon but if I do thats that.
The other is Life After Death - Sixx Am
I don't care if they're 'too heavy' for funeral songs.
Thats what I want.
^.^

"Cool night, hot days
See hear touch feel & taste
To give to take
To mend that which I break
These things I am so thankful that I have

Open your eyes
Open up your eyes
Open your eyes
Open up your eyes

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

That I wake wake up
Every single day
The people that I know
The people that helped me grow
These arms & these legs
That you and me aren’t dead

Im thankful for all these things
Im thankful for all these things

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

Cause I feel the same things you feel
Cause I feel the same things you feel

Suddenly I am weightless and Im staring at the sun
All of my knots one by one come undone
Im on the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life

Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life
Im On the drug that I like to call life
Almost stopped breathing but I’ve come back to life"

What Americans May Not Know! And Need To!

Australian actors/actresses.

Dominic Purcell - Blade Trinity, Prison Break, John Doe.
Hugh Jackman - X-men 1, 2, 3, X-men Origens: Wolverine, Australia.
Eric Bana - The Other Boleyn Girl, Finding Nemo, Troy.
Portia de Rossi - Stigmata, The Twilight Zone.
Elle Macpherson - Batman & Robin.
Sophie Monk - Click, Date Movie, Sex and Death 101.
Olivia Newton-John - Grease, Glee [TV].
Geoffrey Rush - Pirates Of The Caribban, Ned Kelly, Bran Nue Day, Finding Nemo.
Holly Valance - DOA: Dead or Alive, Taken.
Mia Wasikowska - Tim Burton's Alice In Wonderland, Rouge.
Naomi Watts - Babe: Pig In The City, The Ring, Ned Kelly, King Kong.
Heath Ledger - Ned Kelly, 10 Things I Hate About You, The Dark Night, A Nights Tale.
Natalie Bassingthwaighte - Neighbours [yuck!], Underbelly: The Golden Mile.
Russel Crowe - Body Of Lies, State Of Play, Gladiator.
Isla Fisher - Wedding Crashers, Horton Hears A Who, Confessions Of A Shopaholic.
Isabel Lucas - Transformers: Revenge Of The Fallen, Daybreakers, The Pacific.
Guy Pearce - Bedtime Stories, The Hurt Locker, Rules Of Engagment.
Tammin Sursok - Aquamarine, Rules Of Engagement, Pretty Little Liars.

So any American who says that australians can't act, then you must be stupid, because that is alot of actors and actress and they're all pretty great.

Why is this happening?

I love her,
I'm not sure if I'm in love with her.
I know she's falling for another girl.
And I know how I feel about that,
I just don't understand...
She said she still loves me.

Lies?

Common Dreads

A heedless and harrowing future is developing for our generation
and generations to come
But as I walk the chartered streets of this familiar oblivion,
I recognise nothing but unweilding unconciousness,
in which we have almost comfortably drowned
It is madness
This normality is madness
We are clinging to manufactured crippled constraints
We must no longer commute between brand-ladened homes,
and quickly accepted aimless roams from our factories of slavery,
to wars of elusive bravery

We must unite!

And we must let the flood gates open

Here tonight, I clock a thousand heads
Here to unite, through common dreads.





yes i do know that picture if from disturbed's album cover.

What is done, is done.

This Is What Happened...
-Woke Up
-Found a dead mouse, watched it twitch for a while
-Wanted to vomit
-Felt Dirty
-Had a shower
-Dead mouse was still on the floor
-Smacked Pepper on the bum for chewing its bum off
-Felt like I just wated somone die
-Woke andrew up
-Went to gosford
-Got yelled at for not getting out of the car fast enough
-Saw Teanele
-Saw Karen
-Went to see Sean
-Thought he wasnt home and walked back to the station to txt him
-Went back and found that the door was actually unlocked [I'm an idiot]
-Chilled with Sean, I now know what it is like to have a cat pushed up your shirt and it not want to move.
-Missed the stupid bus by five freaking minutes
-SAW SHAE!
-Chatted with shae, found out I could have gotten my dermals for $25! GOD DAMN IT!
-Got the bus to andrews, found i was locked out, again.
-Unlocked the back door through the cat door
NOT AS EASY AS IT SOUNDS! It took me at least 10 minutes and I had to put my leg in the air =S
-Made some tea and had some cookies.
-Applied for jobs at:
+Coles
+Anges & Robertson
+Bras N Things
+General Pants Co.
+Harris Farm Markets
-That took me 4 hours
-Spoke to Brendan Taylor
-Spoke to Jade
-Wrote a blog about Jade
-Couldn't Finish the blog about Jade
-Missed Jade
-Somethings happened
-Wanted sex
-Didn't get sex
-Did some more things
-Spoke to Izzy, I saw her kitty C:
-Wrote this blog...

To the first girl I loved

You are amazing.
You are beautiful.
You are careing.
You are charming.
You are divine.
You are extrordiary.
You are fun.
You are funny.
You are a great friend.
You are great.
You are honest.
You are incredable.
You are inspiring.
You are just.
You are kind.
You are kind-hearted.
You are lovely.
You are luminous.
You are magnificent.
You are nifty.
You are nice.
You are out-going.
You are outstanding.
You are perfect.
You are Q..?
You are remarkable.
You are very sweet.
You are so very special.
You are trustworthy.
You are understanding.
You are vivid.
You are wonderful.
You are X..?
You are Y..?
You are zest?

Xx

Damn all the rest of the cute people to hell!

And how!
I used to be cute!
I don't know what happened, I mean ok I lost my braces,
and yes, I am aware they made me cuter,
and I found the ability to brake hearts and actually do make up,
but still..!, how many people do you know who are "fuglyheartbreakers"?
Anywho, I miss my braces and my good hair and old friends.
I miss the good old days of 15 year old "love".
It was stupid and fucked up and we thought we were loseing our minds and hearts.
It was a battle through a macabre school yard of ripped up hearts,
cut up wrists and idiodic promises that would be forgotten in the next year.
We all thought it ment so much, but now we're here watching all the 15 year olds now we think,
" why..? Why would you do that? You should be partying and under age drinking and laughing at
the stupid things everyone is doing not punching up the first person to talk to you 'girlfriend' ".

Well maybe that wasn't your childhood but that was mine, attending Hollywood high!
The central coasts own, the finest school for the finest looking "ladies and gentlemen".
Ha!

NightTime

I think it happened at nighttime
A cold rain drizzled down from space
Hiding tears from streetlight eyes
I saw the same familiar face
Something pseudo tv love
A mixed up girl who's something of
A fairytales romantic dream come true

She breaks my heart and blurs my eyes
Her love is never easy
A magic made for tragic minds
And thinking back I should have known
That she could see right through me
And I would end up on my own

Gazing through my window
She glittered like the starlit rain
Whispering tales of broken hearts
She told me things would never change
There was only so much words could say
We closed our eyes and dreamed away
And for a time our love was almost real

She breaks my heart and blurs my eyes
Her love is never easy
A magic made for tragic minds
And looking back I should have known
That she could see right through me
And I would end up on my own

Sweet#Hart

I lay awake stuck by this fickle thorn
I lay with you so they won't sink in their claws
I lay awake while the beasts and the whores
Are dancing in, dancing in
Dancing in the jaws of a landfill

Am I ever gonna let you in before I see it coming?
Systematic in decay

I'm dying to feel what you feel now
You've already been such a sweetheart
And I know we all get scared
We all get scared
Too much head, but too little heart oh honey
I want your touch, such a shame that I am numb honey
Not meant to be this way

Lover, lover, lover you'll never know
You'll never know
Because, lover, lover breathing down my neck
Incendiary breath
And still my lover is a burden
Tell me something could you smell my fear?
As I lay there
Cringing on your bed

I'm dying to feel what you feel now
You've already been such a sweetheart
And I know we all get scared
We all get scared
Too much head, but too little heart oh honey
I want your touch, such a shame that I am numb honey
Not meant to be this way

Maybe my seed found purchase in your soil
It's just a fight, a futile fight to feel connected
I lay awake stuck by this fickle thorn
Instead of tending to it's prick I lay infected.

Am I ever gonna let you in before I see it coming?
Systematic in decay

I'm dying to feel what you feel now
You've already been such a sweetheart
And I know we all get scared
We all get scared
Too much head, but too little heart oh honey
I want your touch, such a shame that I am numb honey
Too much head, but too little heart oh honey
Too much head, but too little heart oh honey
Not meant to be this way

It's like a party in my mouth, and everyone's throwing up.

I don't think the sex's were ever supposed to understand each other...
I'm sure there was a time way back when that men were called gentlemen.
I truly wish that I lived in the 1890s just to see what it feels like to be loved/wanted and
Although I really can not imagine such a thing the word had to have had some meaning.
What happened to things like;
Soft kisses on a silk gloved hand,
Subtle glances across a glittering ballroom,
and when men helped a lady in her car/carrige,
or held the door open for her.
Did all that die with Merry Popins?
Damn that bitch and her independent-umbrella-flying-hideous-dress-wearing ways!
God I hate it.
Well, whatever.
These days men are more related to Pigs more then they are humans.
Its really quite revolting to see how down-hill the sanity of humanity going.
I love my andrew baby more then anything I know in this world and could never love anything or anyone more then I love him, but I'm truly considering going right to being lesbian, I mean, I'm halfway there being bisexual, it's really will not be that hard to give up boys.
Mm, cute, fun, sexy girls!
(L)
Oh wells.

Also, I would just like to add in here that if you like the sound of the 1890s please read The Luxe, Rumours, Envy and Splendor.
So far I've read Luxe and Rumours but they're so goodgoodgood.
http://www.theluxebooks.com/

Nightall.

Other Half

Greek philosophers believe that originally humans were combined of 4 arms, 4 legs, and a single head made of 2 faces, but they were split in half and condemned to spending their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

The idea of “Soul Mates” is basically defined as the idea that there is only one individual perfectly matched with and for you throughout this entire planet.

TRASH

I've never been.
I forget what it is!
No money.
But, it's going to be a good night.
I hope, get high, maybe drrrunk,
and hopfully GET MY PHONE FIXED!
Yeah i'm pre happy.
lalala.
hm tes is ignoring meeeeeee =[
Either she's on the phone ororor she forgot about me.
Oh well.
This is probably my most pointless blog.
I want a girl.
I want her again.
But, she has a new boyfriend, gah!
If 'he' found out he would be very disapointed in me.
And he'd probably be very depressed.
I always seem to fuck up everyones life.
Am I being selfish?
I don't mean to.
Its just how I am.
Gah! What to do?
I WANT HER =[

Hm.. Lets just try think about something else for a while...
...
-tries to think about other stuff-
...
All i can think about is going out and kissing other girls...
I'm not even supposed to be thinking about girls.
I an absolutly in love with andrew.
He is the only thing i can think about with out my mind wondering off to something else... Like girls.
Hm.. I have issues.
Eh.
Sweet Dreams...

Healing With The Fairies,, Does it work?

Alot of people don't beleive in fortune-telling,, magic,, fairies or fate.
I beleive in all,, but fortune-telling has never really worked for me.
But that was because I didn't know what I wanted.
I mean,, I still don't know but i knew what to ask this time.
All I wanted was a little knowledge for the future.
First Time-
Past: Family Harmony.
Now, I've never really gotten along with my family so I didn't really understand this.
Maybe it has something to do with the fact that the harmony is gone.
Probably because that would make alot more sense.
Present: New Location.
This just means that at the present time I'm either changing location as in residential [not that i know of, but for a few weeks I've been thinking about moving to my dads] or change in employment , which works because I've just applied for a few jobs, hopefully one of them works out.
Future: Kindness.
This says that I should focus on "lovefulness".
To do anonymous good deeds, which also fits because I've been trying to raise money and awarness for tigers, but at the moment haven't gotten far.

Second Time-
Past: Inner Power.
"Allow yourself to experence and express your true power."
This, again, confuses me.
But when I read on it also says "keep your self-esteem high, by taking care of your physical and emotional self and work on your dreams"
A lot of people know that I'm trying to be on a diet.
And I'm working out a bit more then I used to.
I'm also participating in a photography course and wanting to study photography at uni next year.
Present: Kick Up Your Heels.
Just means that I long to have an exciting adventure.
True.
Went to soundwave two weeks ago and then mardi gras the week after so that was funfunfun ^.^
Future: New Location.
Again.
Hoping for a new job.
Third time's the charm.
Past: Stand Your Ground.
Says to be true and honest to my feelings.
Yes.
I had an example but I don't feel I want to share it anymore.
Present: New Location.
Again.
If you're still reading this, I bet you're starting to believe now.
New Job. Applied the other day. Wish me luck.
Future: Kick Up Your Heels.
Again, Soundwave and Mardi Gras.

All those times I was asking the Same question.

I swear to you all, Fate,, fairies and fortune-telling,, its all real and it does work.
It's all around you all the time.
Third time is always the charm.

THE FUCKING END!
[finally yeah]

Lover's End

Hands cover whispers of the lovers fright,
Fear clocked renditions of that autmn night
Digging up rumours of the kids in the park.
What awful things happened in that dark.
Take just one last dare.
Pretend you dont care till twilight falls.
Wait theres something else here.
And I cant stop my tears.
I've never ben so scared.
In the cellar burried six feet deep.
The lover's shaken from a dreamless sleep.
Nails slawing splinters from the ceiling and floor.
Shrieking like the witches till his stitchs are sore.
Calling for the other searching.
For her lover secrests she discovers.
Drain her face of colour.
1...2...3...4... Underneath the cellar floor.
5...6...7...8...Lover will suffocate.

Poisonous, Immune.

You don't deserve to feel the way you do.
Such an amazing person should never have fake feelings.
I know you've been through alot honey and I understand that it hurts.
But please don't think for one second that I never loved you.
Because I did.
The first girl that I ever loved.
I will always love you.
I'll always remember the time that i stayed at your house and we slept together on the couch.
I was too afraid to wake you up and tell you I was freezing.
Sound stupid I know...
I didnt want to wake you, I would have felt horrible.

And that time your dad hated on me and told me to leave you alone, I wanted to die.
I felt so ugly and I never wanted to hurt you the way he said i had.
That I was making you fail at school.
I'm so sorry that I put you through the things I did.

Also the time we went to the movies, Bedtime Stories, Underworld: Rise of The Lycans and 17 Again.
Through each movie, I wanted to kiss you, I wanted you more each time, even though I knew we shouldn't and you probably didn't feel the same.

I know that its better this way though, because if we didn't stop we would have just kept fighting and hurting each other more and more and even though it hurt to stop, its better this way.
You are such an amazing girl!
So much fun and so beautiful.
Never think you have no one, or nothing.
I'm always there to talk to and help you with no matter what it is.



raah.kitching@myspace.com

Almost Legal.

It's almost my birthday...
Well not really but it feels like it is.
And I want to have a theme party.
I'm thinking something vampiric, dark and classic.
But I don't know.
So I'm taking votes on people's favourite themes, so far I've got;
Vagas Disco,
and Haunted House.

Any idea's comment/message me on myspace or here.

www.myspace.com/raah.kitching

To My Darling.

To my darling,

I cannot stand being away from you.
When you are not near it feels as though the world is laughing at me.
As if the moon and the sun are going to collide.
I am not as happy as I could be.
Such a horrible feeling for anyone to endure, to be away from the one they love.

I feel certain that I may now know all that much about love,
but I know that what i feel is more then any other emotion I have ever felt.
The admiration that I have for you, is more then I have for anyone else that I have ever know.

I am your's and always will be.
Till death do us part does not cut it.
I need to be with you past death.
There needs to be a kind of spirit plain for all great lovers, like Romeo and Juliet[Shakespeare], Usagi and Mamoru [Sailor Moon], Allie and Noah [The Notebook], Rose and Jack [Titanic a movie i dispise yet the love is still there], Christian and Satine [Moulin Rouge], and also Tidus and Yuna [Final Fantasy X] so that they can live on forever together and never have to be sperate.

You are the perfect form of my opposite attraction.
You are my life and soul, so there-for i need you to live.
You are my love, my one and only and i will never forget you and all the love we have and forever will share.

I love you with my life.

Together,
always mine and forever yours,

L.J.S

What and why and how? Part three.

Finally after all ther screaming and yelling and attention they've "called it quits" to their so called "relationship".
He came over after and told me about it.
I don't remember much at the moment but what i can remember is;
He asked if she wanted to stop doing what they'd been doing.
She said, I can't belive you even have to ask that.
blah blah blah and she ended up walking home by herself without her keys =/

I don't know what else to say.
Shortest blog so far ^.^

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What, why and how? Part fucking two!

Its happened again!
Within less then maybe 2 hours!
He found her.
She lied to him.
He lied to her.
So they were on some cliff apprently lying to each others faces!
To me that sounds like a death wish!
I don't understand!
All I'm trying to do is say that I don't want to take sides between them because they're both my friends.
He comes over after all that and expects me to fix it.
How The FUCK am i supposed to fix something that has nothing to do with me!
I have no part in this, how is it my problem?!

So we had a huge talk about how \I'm not taking sides I'm just trying to explain that they need to leave each other alone and try not being friends for a while and maybe just maybe all the problems will go away with the fact that they've stopped trying to get along when clearly its just not going to happen.
Then he comes out with "If you're not on my side you're on her side" and horse-shit like that.
Then, i notice the cuts on his fucking wrist! AGAIN!
So we're having a time out because I am way too pissed off to keep talk about this right now.

I'll write again when when i know what is going on.

What, why and how?

First of all you probably will think that this photo has nothing to do with anything, but it does, it symbolises passing. Passing can also mean getting over something. In this text it will mean getting over someone, like your ex.

What is it about boys that makes them so fucking hard to undderstand?!
Why do they have to get all upset over their ex girlfriends just because they don't tell them that they're having sex with/seeing someone else now?
It not your business!
You broke up with her/she broke up with you.
I don't see why you think she has to tell you all about her fucking life if she chooses not to!
And anyway it's her 20th birthday I'm sure she should be allowed to do whatever she fucking wants without your permission.

What do you think I'm going to do about you being upset?
It's not my fault she still loves you, it's not my fault she doesn't want to spend time with you, and again it's not my fault that she wanted me not you.
And even though she did want me and not you, that was then, she wanted you again after that.

How on earth is kissing me all the time going to fix things in your life, fix things with her?
I'm just going to make the whole thing so much more complicated!

If anyone understands any of this and agrees with this boy then please explain it to me because its seriously defacing my whole life.

So Sick.

It was my friends 18th last night!
YAY!
It was excruciatingly painful until izzy turned up.
I adore that girl!
Absolutly gorgeous!
Anyway it was good then, but the thing is, the boy i used to like was there...
And i know he used to like me...
But what the fuck was with him!
He was ignoring me and hooking up with and all but having sex with, until I left, some ugly bitch who is actually his friends ex!
And to make it even weirder she broke up with my friend the night me and him...
Did what him and her were doing last night.
I mean I wouldn't care as much if he wasnt ignoring me.
Or making sure I was around for everything!
Seriously, just before I left he came into the lounge room where i had been for a little over half an hour, with her shadowing behind of course, laid down onto the lounge and she litterally jumped on top of him.
What the fuck does that even fucking mean!
Like, what does he want me to do, push her off and jump onto him instead?!
I didn't think he wanted me still thats why I forced myself to get over him.
I seriously thinking about going lesbian soon.
Well, thats only if my current boyfriend breaks up with me...
Again, but for real this time.
Not like all the other times, they don't really count.

Well, thats it for now.
Lovelovelove.

So, Here It Is...

My first ever blog!
So to get started, yes, I'm going to bitch about things and people,
that's what a blog is obviously, somewhere you post your opinions.
And beleive me, I have a lot of them.
Anyway, that is not all I will be posting here.
Hopefully if i can figure all this out soon, I shall post pictures and polls and such.
Yay for raah.

For my first blog I just want to write about myself and maybe get some replys.
I want to know about you, the reader, but first you have to read about me.
Deal?
If not, just click the little red [x] in the right corner or type a new page into the task bar.

Name; Raah.
Age; 17, almost 18! Yay.
D.O.B; 27/o5/1992
Occupation; Currently living at home bludgeing, but i hope to get a new job soon.

Current Favourites.
Colour; Red... And purple and black and blue...
Bands; The Birthday Massacre [have been the favourite for quite sometime.], Parkway Drive [also been a favourite a long time] and I also really love Saosin.
Numbers; 7, 3 and 13.
Influence; Zoe Kravitz, Audrey Kitching and Jac Vanek.


Well thats it for now.
Post replies about yourself here or add me and then comment me on myspce at:
www.myspace.com/raah.kitching

I'm out, much love.